It has been 7 years since....

Dearest daddy 

It has been 7 years since you left us

It seems just like yesterday 

Since you left we also left home

To me you are still back in Penang

While I'm here

But I am coming home soon

I realized that I won't be seeing you 

I realized that your image are getting blurred over time

The only vivid memory I had was the night 7 years ago

The car ride to the hospital was as clear as day

I can't get it out of my mind until today

My heart still hurts and put a sting to my eyes

I'm really  sacred that one day your face will totally blurred from my memory

As it still pained me to look at your photos

After 7 years

At last I'm going home

I think it's going to be hard

Mum is getting old and her memory getting bad

I know everyone is smiling but inside our heart we're all still grieving 

People said time will heal

But I know it will take a long time

Not only to me but to mum too

So daddy 

Please forgive me

For not being there for mum when she is grieving 

For not looking after mum after you passed away 

I know it hit hard with mum

She still told me she talk to you everyday 

I know she is lonely

That is why she doesn't want to think much

Her sadness and loneliness makes her memory slowly slipped away 

It really saddened me 

Thank you to my dearest sister for looking after mum

Thank you to my dearest little brother for looking after mum

I can't thank both of you enough 

So daddy dearest

Please  blessed mum and the three of us

Be our guardian angel 

Look after us from a far

Thank you daddy

Missed you dearly

Regret it awfully 

No point reminiscing over it

As all came too late!